17 August 2009
It has been a while since i update my blog wahaha.. MIA for quite a while i guess..Been working all this while.. working makes one tired easily and OLD.. haha y.. coz morning wake up, go to work, then may OT or maybe not then go hm, eat , slp, watch show. Tired and slp. The routine goes like tt.. how bad it is... Sadded, still clearing my Poly fees.. Haiz when can finish lei.. finish le can go find better jobs lesser stress or work.. Or shld i continue there and get sponsor for scholarship?
Time to change my blog layout soon. When i free, lol... i hope i can be free.
DREAMING 9:32 PM
29 November 2008
I feel kind of sad.. abt myself, thoughts, e way i am, my character why all these negative things keep on coming.. Is there something wrong with me? Or am i abnormal? Or i shouldnt even be living? Nothing seemed to go rite and even though i tried yet it still not gd enough. Sometimes i realli hope that i will faint one day and that will be the day i am breaking down. Am i getting more introvert? Please dont!!!!Last sun went for a fren wedding, was helping out as the bride's sister in the morning and the dinner. Learnt bit of experience of the good and bad, and planning of the wedding and detailed confirmation are impt. Hope husband n wife will "bai tou xie lao" and "en en ai ai".
DREAMING 1:35 AM
23 July 2008
time to update my blog soon.. haven realli hav enough to do my stuffs.. hmm sound like so no life..my blog skin pending, packing my room, my wardrobe .. oH no, haha so messy... sob headache.. hmm wat do i realli wan? my probation period coming to an end soon.. I think my boss thinks i will stay at this job.. but the thing is i dunnoe if i could realli do e job.. or i shld go estate line.. hmm hmph hmph.. hmm.. thinkthink oso gt no ans for myself.. jus headache.. haiz..
DREAMING 10:45 PM
30 June 2008
Just saw jia's taggie, realised i realli stop blogging for a longggggggggggg while.. hmm as a started off, been wking at my current job for 2 mths.. Eversince wking there, hmm life changes.. Have been online for wk stuffs but nt personal stuffs.. so sad.. feel like miserable..Today, cousin called mi early in morning but i was too slpy and so was slping till 1plus.. Then when i woke up call her back, she said she about to left my ah ma house le.. so sad couldnt get to c ethan sobz.. my cute little one.. Today oso isnt a gd day.. coz i spoilt my fav slipper.. orh *heart broke* Gonna buy another one soon.. or even 2 coz shoes is never enough for female.. can match wif clothings.. Hope tml will be a better day or a peaceful day at wk. *pray*
Another thing, i miss e galz.. haha poly gals, bing, jia n deb.. wonder wat they all doing? And wanna play pool too again !!!
DREAMING 12:51 AM
29 April 2008
bad dream
today woke up by a bad dream. Find it super yucky.. dreamt i got a rat as my pet, which bites mi so many times when i tried to tame it and only come to me and smile and so soft when feeding time. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... think abt it so yucks.Working life is so sian n bored... nO life at all.. hmm if nv go out, oso have no plan oso... plan too much oso tired.. haiz.. Today adeline last day at wk.. so sad.. even though i'm leaving in anOther 2 days too.. haha... cant wait to do my facial though i nOe gg to be a terrible time for mi haha clog pores n pimples face hmm... jus bad tt i dun wan to say further liao..
DREAMING 10:39 PM
18 February 2008
Spend my wkends watching movies haha cj7 and kungfu.. cj7 is so cute.. jay look so gong gong in e show haha.. Nice movies... dunnoe y jus miss tom yam stuffs even after i ate tt on sun nite.. hmm find a day go eat tom yam steam boat hehe... drool liao.. and oso dunnoe y my hse weighing machine lost where.. hmm waTs my weight nw ah.?
hmm.. for my chinese new yr.. tis yr been a special n funny one.. took a big family photo for mum side, is a big whole group yet still short of my aunts and uncles and cousins. imagine everyone is there, OMG cannt squeeze in.. funni thing is haha my own cousin couldnt recognise mi lol.. hmm we din get to c each other for hmm at first i thought is 2 yrs, but then i think again coz her son was in kindergarden when i last saw her and nw her son is in pri 6.. so counted is 6 yrs e least man.. haha no wonder she cant recognise mi and even thought tt i was my cousin's gf lol (he sat beside mi then)..
And for dad side, every yr gt family photo without fail.. and my nephews r growing older, sadly reminds mi tt i'm gg to be getting older liao.. :(
DREAMING 11:11 PM
05 February 2008
CNY coming so soon.. yeah.. here comes my steamboat.. gulp.. so hungry jus by e thoughts of it.. also ang baos.. hehe.. And wanted to pack my room, however was jus been kind of lazy to get myself wk on it.. so hmm nt much of changes haha, kind of messy at least to mi..Reg my life, been kind of bad for nw i think.. emotionally weak, mentalli and physically weak. The thing is i'm still glad, i hav my dear ard wif mi and my family and my other frenz.. who i nOe i can count on.. Believing in e wrong believe is wat i hope it nv happens to mi again anymore.. i see myself jus feels like being deceived..
This CNY i din buy any new shoes or bags. hmm shld plan wat i'm gg to match wif.. haha.. haven decide wat to wear on 1st day. Sure gonna be a busy day for mi..
DREAMING 6:57 PM
31 January 2008
What i wanted to say
Its been much clearer picture to me.. hmm waT can i say? i jus can onli say tt Heng still veri childish, hasnt grow yet or rather shld say he haven been thinking.. anyway i dun feel angry or upset or anything.. jus make mi ponder alot which make mi feel uneased, well coz its happening to mi.. anyway i've gt no regrets, things jus happen becoz of wat i wanted to say or i jus did.. Past r past.. i jus wan to be alive for my own future.. Many things been happening ard mi, its jus make mi uneasy to accept (in fact i can accept). Just uneased becoz i'm aware abt it. What i did for benny is wat i feel i shld do.. Anyway i thought for myself, the picture booklet album was the last and indeed it realli came so true for mi. What can i do for e best of me, ting, benny and heng? hmm
DREAMING 5:55 PM