Even in my heart, I see
Deep within my soul, I feel
Nothing's like it used to be

Sometimes I wish I could, turn back time
Impossible as it may seem
I should've known from the start
Before you got in my heart (From my heart)
♥♥♥

yesterday nite met my ex- colleagues.. but nt realli like a gathering coz onli 3 of us and e rest (3) r their frenz... lucky thing is they all drive haha so even when i meet them, one of my fren came n fetch mi.. Of coz send mi back hm after supper at jalan kayu & went to yishun dam.. so "comfeee" when i sat his car (seat).. more than 2 yrs never seen them feel kinda weird coz even when we r colleagues, i din went out wif them at all.. lol other than those lunch breaks.. reached home at 230am slept at 3am.. And woke up at 7am, feelin so sleepy haha..

today at wk oso cant open my eyes.. haha even while i was standing (ensure tt the contractor do his job & complete it correctly), my eyes closed for many times man.. And my office de fren oso same as mi slept at 3am.. both of us sitting in e office & for e whole day are like dead bodies.. today went to meet benny after my wk, went for movie together wif his frenz oso.. was so tired & sleepy tt i couldnt do anything, sat & stand ard watchin them play games.. even on e way back hm feel like sleepin.. *yawn*
still remember e 2nd day when i came to wk at my 2nd place location, haha funny thing is.. gt tis contractor he thought tt i was one of the invited contractors too. lol..

23rd Mar
Yesterday after wk went to meet my np guys at amk again.. lol.. saw ah lian over there at s-11, called her few times 'ah lian' haha but then i onli noe her tis name.. lol.. guess she kinda paiseh.. coz at e coffee shop & called out in tis name in public. But after wk, met up wif e guys was so tired but was fun coz kept telling funny jokes.. and make fun of wai.. so cute his reaction.. eyes wanna close tired n slpy..

24th Mar
yesterday went back to my previous attachment place, haha feel so funni coz nv go back to office on a saturday.. and nw they doing hand over, so the office is veri different.. anyway next wk gg back to office again and is the last day of my company over there.. After that, went for lunch wif benny then play pool lol... he teach mi.. haha coz i too long nv play le, till i dun even noe hw to play man.. then went to shop ard for a while, haha both our legs are so 'suan' lol.. meet my frenz wanted to watch movie but becoz of the crowd, went to party world instead.. haha sang quite many songs.. then i saw someone wearing the earing that i want.. so xing yang yang.. hmm.. i wanna go get it next time when i'm at far east again.. coz i dun wanna regret.. but i think i will, coz tt time saw it is already e last pair le.. After singing, went for supper wif them reach hm at 1 plus coz one of them are driving.. haha so tired after a whole day of programmes..

25th Mar
Slp till 12 plus haha.. and feel so nice coz last night i masked my face.. i wanna be white lol..

today gt to noe a new fren.. And is someone whom i met b4, he was stationed at Comcentre oso while i was there for my attachment.. Met him few times there but nv talk to each other b4 coz from diff company so doing diff stuffs.. And so coincidence, he can recognised mi & he's a ngee ann graduate student but dunnoe which yr grad lol. Today din realli do anything much at wk.. And finish wk late at 630 coz i was waiting for my colleague go back home together. So tired.. nw my everyday life like so weird.. nt used to it.. nt becoz of wk.. hmm i oso dunnoe y.. couldnt explain.. jus feeeel.. Haha...

haha i'm so smart put e rabbit pic in to block tt..
Today at wk place gt to noe a new fren named Andy.. but under diff company.. Friendly guy.. i guess shld be quite good at reading or observing ppl.. coz he can guess tt i bite my lips (skin), i prefer singing than dancing.. lol.. hw he can noe tt? (does tt wrote on my face? lol)... anyway had my lunch together wif cindy n him at amk. Luckily jus late a little while, boss jus say onli to cindy but i think oso refer mi lol.. coz i'm wif her de.
After wk meet up wif yen n benny, intially wanna take neo prints n movie but then couldnt find any at amk.. So jus sat ard at MOSburger chatting n takin pics.. so sad sat gg back to Comcentre again.. haiz.. so ma fan..

1st few days of wk kinda nt used to it.. coz under diff wking environment.. n tis time round, i follow my boss every nw n then.. kinda stupid coz when back in e office, he will do his stuffs (busy) then i jus sit in front.. if nt jus help him take any docu tt he wans. He looks veri fierce de like loan sharks look (big sized, tanned, wear long pants n long sleeves shirt but folded up untidy n loose loose like tt) Even so he's still very experience and realli good in everything.. haha.. by e way he do things n talk.. then today he brought mi go for kopi during office hrs.. haha.. at e office de cafeteria & treat mi drink.. hmm typically when nt in or nt in office, my job is follow him lol... good or bad? coz quite stress, facing him yet do nothing.. then already 1 mth past le, i haven gt my pay yet.. n my attendance sheet makes mi so troubled coz i'm attached to diff places. hw to do lei? hmm...

16th Mar
Friday nite i went to benny n his frenz de chalet.. by e time i reached there already 10 plus le.. so tired though veri like slpin but couldnt fall aslp.. feel abit weird n ps coz onli met them for few times.. hope i nt veri 'dao' or make atmosphere weird.. but watched them play games real funni.. went to 'kan hai' wif him till abt 4am talked abt many many things while eating chocolate.. lol i chose de (big bar one, lol) n bought my toothbrush which is together wif a ttpaste.. haha (packed my stuffs in rush even can forgt bring toothbrush).. OH NONO.. i jus realised i forgt to throw my toothbrush n paste de bag.. Sorry sorry sia.. left it there nv throw.. though slp quite early among them, but fall aslp at abt 435 like tt (tts when e lights r off n all of them tryin to slp)..

17th Mar
Slp until 835 woke up & washed up.. then when e rest r done, we went to whitesands hav our breakfast at mac but benny nv eat anything jus drank e shared tea.. bought e chalet use de n bbq stuffs & shop over there.. haha went back to chalet but then benny n mi went to whitesand again coz of my ezlink, mon start wk gonna take bus so muz buy concession pass.. pai seh make u go wif mi haha.. n u stoppin mi frm buyin thing again lol.. then went back to chalet n went for cycling wif some them.. though din noe them initially but after e cycling, more able to chat wif them more comfortably.. For e whole afternoon benny onli ate 2 breads, 2 puffs, cheese roll n tea.. end up when bbq time he felt unwell le.. so sad coz he wanted to try his own made de marinade de chicken but couldnt eat n he dun feel like eatin.. like so stubborn sia.. Haha coz i kept pestering wanna him to eat.. went to yong wee there ate rice, sat a while n chat.. then went to benny there checked on him.. luckily at least gt eat abit.. when they all wanna go watch e sea, i pei him for his dinner (though is porridge but he still ate finish) better than mi sia.. if i sick, i onli will eat 2 spoons tts all.. by e time we wanna go find them, some of them gg back to chalet le.. end up i din hav e chance to say 'goodbye' to them coz after watch e sea gg back hm le.. during e day at chalet feel like gg to 'escape' n wild wild wet coz nv been there for long.. haha..

18th Mar
haha slp at abt 3am.. coz watching tv then woke up at 3 plus.. lol.. hmm 12 hrs wahaha... but then still tired.. initially wanted to go ah ma's hse but oso nv go.. in e end oso nv blog n nv even do my report which i think is send to my officer by today (19th mar).. spend e day watching tv.. e ren ci charity show..

19th Mar
today is brand new start for attachment.. a new place n new boss n colleagues.. waited for my reporting de officer= myboss, for abt half an hr at e lobby.. coz office was locked n security guard no keys oso.. when stepped into office, onli gt 2 rooms (2 tables n 4 chairs tts all) one for boss n one, e clerk de.. so when gt nothing to do, i sat in front of my boss.. doing nothing lei.. stress lor.. followed him for e whole day, from meetings to rooftop de tenders.. even went for lunch wif boss n his bosses at e cafeteria.. lucky i'm ard their daughter or son age.. in e afternoon then e clerk came.. quite a nice person n she live at seng kang too.. gt accompany for lunch n journey hm le.. today 1st time so early hm haha.. coz journey back hm is veri short.. SHIT i haven do my report..

Its Yen's birthday today.. Happy 20th Birthday!!!

14th Mar
I have my lunch together wif a attachment student but is from diff company jus tt we r located at e same site (at singtel).. And she's from NTU haha.. After wk benny came to meet mi for dinner together, walk ard orchard.. went to far east & saw a pair of earing which i wanted to get (been looking for tt design at other places).. but sadly its a little ex.. wanted it so much haha... think my likes of style change again.. lol.. But end up din buy coz BENNY said i keep spending $$$.. While on bus (e journey back home), took pics wif him (though nt so clear)..

15th Mar
today is my last day attachment at Singtel there.. kinda sad.. coz uncles there treat mi veri good even e boss, though e boss dun look like a boss.. today i ate free meals.. morning stepped into office gt breakfast (packed of meehoon) on my desk by uncle goh.. lunch went to buy wif david n patricia, end up david says he treat mi eat, dun wan mi to pay him back.. seems like jus gt use to wk n ppl there, suddenly change of environment.. so sad n afraid n feels weird... hmm later shld be gg to benny there de chalet.. shld i leave home nw? haha i dun noe sia..

So sian today at wk.. but then follow uncles ard n chat wif them.. dun realli like wkin society, sounds n look fake to mi.. but oso cant be help.. nothing much at wk.. today bring ppl go do structural inspection on every level.. 33 levels.. After wk, went back home straight.. wonder wat i'll be doing at wk tml.. hmm.. Soon tis fri gonna change to another place le.. so scared tt over there de staffs is not nice..
Benny, Good Luck ^o^ for tml.. keke

Din hav a good nite slp yesterday.. woke up twice maybe becoz veri warm n couldnt fall asleep though i'm tired.. but deardear oso couldnt fall asleep either.. today met weiting after wk go get her stuffs then went to bugis.. Din hav much time to shop plus i'm so tired.. jus shop a while get e thing i wan.. hav our meal together.. gt noodles, rojak & our desserts, veri FULL de meal up to now still veri full.. haha.. getting fatter le coz food keep gg in but no output.. sad.. i wan my holiday so i can do watever i wan rather than jus wk onli.. so sian..

11th Mar
today went to Suntec again.. finally deardear bought mi cartigen plus a top haha.. *Love* then went to IT fair to get deardear de small small thumbdrive... And is so packed wif ppl.. Dinner at Tony Roma (hmm izzit spell like tt).. ribs is nice.. but then too big serving n veri ex.. total bill plus gst= $91.++ never gg to eat at there again.. once is enough.. lol..

10th Mar
haha.. yen came to my hse after her wk to get e printed stuff.. then i gt free cable from her.. so nice.. thanz muacks.. hav lunch together at my hse listening n transferring songs. After tt meet deardear went to Northpoint to get my cartigen but then out of stock le.. sad.. sobsobs.. was in bad mood but then deardear kept tryin to please mi.. even suggest eat sushi.. happy coz i jus love salmon..

Went to work today...
kna say by CEO~COE.. so pissed wif her..
Been follow uncle chia n goh so tt i wont be in e office..
walkin ard n standing.. leg in pain though wearing slippers.
After wk, went to meet wai for dinner at tt time abt 7pm at his wkplace.. haha then sAw debbie & her 'gap'.. to be right is i din see her, is she called mi de.. ops haha.. sorry, i think i was walkin pretty fast couldnt hear her calling mi.. so happy get to see her again.. though is onli coincidence we met there..
After dinner wif him, he went back to wk and mi go for shopping till he finish wk.. lol.. bought 2 tops.. waited for him to fnish wk for abt 20 mins.. n there are so many ppl... on e way back home, he still suan siao mi.. 'mio fang' e way i talk.. so funni n exaggerating..

After e whole day, my leg is so pain n gg flabbly le.. lol.. Then i kna abrasion (hmm spell correctly?) any medicine or cure for tt? coz its so pain.. sobs..

today went to Suntec IT fair wif my colleagues during lunch break.. lol.. of coz leave slightly earlier.. hao wee (staff there) so bad lor.. he jus called mi go along, i thought he's going for fire system inspection.. end up all e others at e lift lobby going to e IT fair. And jus before tt Lao Da asked mi go makan wif him n i promised him.. so gong gong follow them down.. end up auntie mary helped mi called Lao Da told him i'm wif her.. so sad.. sound like i so bad, promise him end up nv go wif him.. went to e fair wanting to c Wai there, but then colleagues been walkin so fast n kept on walk n walk de.. dun hav e chance to c him.. though i msg him told him tt i was there.. by e end we reach office already 130 le.. all of them includin mi are so hungry lol.. like kept walkin getting hungrier haha.. buy back our lunch frm canteen.. Michael so nice.. treat mi eat haha even though is onli mixed veg rice. veri nice guy.. i was standing behind him, but he ask mi wat i wanna eat tell e auntie.. haha.. like big brother.. after lunch, i'm back to wk again.. haha doing wat? tearing papers.. old records n documents de.. but need to be destroy b4 throw away.. haiz.. no scrap machine.. use manully lor.. And it is a WHOLE STACK.. by e end of e wk today, i haven finish yet... lol.. sooooooo many... but then oso becoz, i've been followin uncle chia.. seen e handover of tenants.. then Hao Wee ask mi return keys to user. End up he ownself return, lol i onli follow him go.. then help him see e exit door pressor whether can wk while he doing e wiring at the inside of e office.. then went back office but couldnt find Chia, so walked back to tenants de office again, he was still there.. its already few mins to 6pm (dismiss).. so stupid lor kna suan by guy whom i dun nOe his name but talk b4.. sayin mi 'wow so hardwkin ah, come back look for chia wk extra hrs.. gt extra money from him isit?' lucky chia ask mi go back 1st.. if nt i oso dunnoe wat time he finish.. when i left office, he's still nt back yet.. lol..
feel like gg shopping tml.. but haiz.. i so sad, i dunnoe who i can ask... haven meet dear for 4days... n plus tml is 5.. i wanna go out..

So boring at wk today argh... n my pimple coming out getting bigger n bigger.. lips keep on peeling by my itchy finger coz lips crack.. haiz..

yeah today meet e girlz... finally get to meet up all of u.. for dinner n shopping.. take pics at e middle of nowhere in front of shop lol... but cant get e pic rite.. lol... hopefully one will turns out rite.. since we took so many pics.. haha... after tt went back for home..

hai.. today morning hav been in e office reading n reading till i'm so sleepy wanna fall asleep.. uncle chua onli bring mi go c those equipmt room a while onli when i gt 9 hrs in office.. hw to survive.. kept forcing myself to stay awake.. even when came back from lunch break, read a while still wanna sleep coz eyes kept reading docu which makes mi so tired.. but then today out of nowhere gt tis standby evacuation due to the slight earthquake.. from sumatra.. heard that marina there de building ppl evacuated n even ngee ann poly oso.. lol.. my own sch.. then my wk place there felt shaky twice.. but jus a short few seconds.. becoz of tis, my boss say wanna prepare for it so we (my wkin ppl) did standby evacuation.. so we did all evacuation preparation.. but end up no evacuation done.. coz there is'nt any more case le.. wasted 2hrs like tt but was nice.. coz i have nothing much to do anyway lol.. n its a experience for mi like a fire drill except tt this is a earthquake evacuation.. haha.. then after wk meet benny for dinner n movie at PS.. after movie went to Daiso, now then noe there is like 2dollar onli.. next time go there again.. benny hor.. hehe.. Saw guang yi but he say bing came but left le.. hw sad.. din get e chance c her.. but tml will be meeting her & e rest of e gals.. haha..

haha today morning already follow under uncle chow.. coz my coe=ceo nick name for her, asked mi to follow him.. wk jus stArt in e morning walkin ard, even did roofstop inspection.. cool.. a veri special experience.. but abt lunch timing noThing to do le, sitting ard in FCC waiting for docu frm boss.. then my boss ask mi 'nothing to do is it?'.. i said yes.. and unexpectedly he say, 'nothing to do we go watch movie'.. i was like eh, wah so nice ah can watch movie during office hr..? lol.. then he jus say 'go up take hp then come down'.. And seriously he meant it.. when i came down, jus followed him then go cineleisure sia.. haha.. free movie n free hotdog bread. So nice.. but over nice a little... lol... after tt went back office.. do reading all e way till 3pm then followed uncle chow again.. but most of e time, i've been in e office doing reading till wanna sleep coz nt enough slp due to early wake up n slp late oso.. haiz.. so nice today gt yen wait for mi to finish wk.. meet up for dinner together at heeren ate e wanton mee wif extra wanton.. delicious n crispy.. yummy.. then went back home together.. she wanted to read for her tml de exam but end up, nv.. lol
Good luck gal for tml..

Today when i stepped into office saw something wif a chopstick on my desk.. thought was rubbish (becoz wrapped wif newspaper) then i held it, was warm warm de.. so confused y this thing is here.. haha its packet of food for mi breakfast, a treat from uncle goh.. so nice of him. Wanna thank him but too shy to say 'thank you to him' in e end jus smile happily to him.. gt a super coincidence connection btw him n mi.. haha his daughter is from e same secondary sch as mi, jus 1yr younger n she's is my fren ex gf (in sec days). lol of coz i nv tell uncle goh abt e ex gf thingy.. then my wk haha whole morning in e office doing reading bored mi to death man.. feel like so useless but no choice under a slack boss who never let mi do anything de then my senior staff, mary put mi follow those experienced de staffs everyday, learn frm them on managing skills.. lol... almost like 'sai gang' but then luckily staffs still quite good to mi, slowly helping mi supplyin mi wif infos n even printed out for mi (confidential de docu oso lend mi read).. but feel sad oso.. coz at e end of tis mth, all of them r splitting. Gathi shaked hands wif mi n sayin his last day seeing mi.. so sad.. some kna retrenched n some kna transferred to other places. Attached to tis company for my attachment affect mi mentally... haiz then my fren realli is suay.. kna accident e day b4.. a day later then msg mi tt she met accident then in A&E rm waiting for go in.. i was so shocked, huh is it realli true couldnt believe at all.. returned her call immediately after see her replied.. worried for her oso.. Went to temple today after my wk, wanting to get her 'fuo'- eng i oso dun Noe hw to say. But jus wanna get her tt for 'ping an'... but i couldnt find anyone there, dun noe hw to get oso. In e end nv get her anything, jus pray for her onli.. but still wanna her to recover soon n healthy oso..

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY! to ting..

early in e morning all e way in e office even finish lunch le still in e office.. coz my attached de staff is missing from his desk n he kept disappearing (run from places to places de wk).. lol was like calling him hrs later n ask him where is he n back in e office so tt i can follow along.. in e end, waited so long. haha end up i followed michael (yesterday de person..) coz i ran after him when he stepped out of e office, askin him where he's gg then i go along wif him.. lol.. follow him do all e fire testing de inspection & alarm & detectors.. after everything back in office again wait for e staff who kept missing de.. lol luckily when he's back he asked mi go along follow him do inspection for e renovation wk to be done. Even went to a place called e theathre.. veri big hall.. whole day is not bad except e waiting portion lol.. uncle oso good lend mi read his COP (cannt get it easily de.) Suddenly feel tt e world is so hopeless, cant imagine wat i'll become when i graduate.. my company is so ridiculous man, e contract wif singtel is over at e end of mar still put mi there for attachment and worst, e staffs there those who wk many yrs are transferred internal and those who wk jus wk nt so long, they retrenched them.. haix..

Name: I R I S Ong Qian Ning
Birthdate: 31/12/1987 Capricorn
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